I live only to provide. We quarreled a lot about certain things and we still quarrell and I dont think we will ever agree on something. This might cut some of us to the heart. Bonus Philippians 2:13 for it is God who works in you, both to will and to work for his good pleasure. The deep pain caused from countless devastating situations since I was little will never be healed.
I feel like I am deprived of love and affection. Making me confused till today. Things spiraled out of control when he took a knife and hurled it at my sister, missing her by a whisker. Left in its natural state, this need for love will generate feelings from joy to frustration and hurt depending upon the extent to which the need is actually satisfied. I am truly amazed that I have managed to not kill myself.
So in order to coping with that I always tries to bind with other female whether she is a stranger or not as to seek connection, and I always fails. It is true that a life without love is crushing at times but it also provides one with time to explore oneself and the world at large. We teach loving kindness, intellectual curiosity and social intelligence. I receive Jesus Christ as my Savior; I confess Him as my Lord. I hope the afterlife is peaceful. I m angry exactly because I miss love.
Do not fear or be dismayed. She loves me still, I know but she had stopped talking to me recently as she want to be a loyal wife to her husband. Your story touched me and you have definitely not been blessed with many things in your life. Back to the family home. I loved a girl 3 years back, she married someone else 2 years ago.
I am often scared, worried about what might or might not happen on any given day. I am an unlovable and undesirable female. She used to look at me with so much love and affection that no girl till now looked at me like that. Sometimes I feel I am not happy about my job, teaching, either. I need to accept that I will never be loved and be okay with that fact, but I always come back to this problem. So I went through this life without experiencing any romantic love. Right, and I found her four times: The first one was a flake, the second one was a sadist, the third one my wife is a coward, and the fourth one was a phony.
I try everything to survive without love. . Maybe see you on daily strength sometime. I rarely share anything, but I guess even I need the feel to share. I remember one boy telling me that my head was so small, it could fit in his hands like a baseball ;. As long as I am still a student of the school called life.
My spirit broke at age 19,when I had no friends. I keep telling myself that this is not the way I want to live my life. What a powerful thing love must be! This is the exact sma thing. I think we in general also put a lot more into love than there actually is — I know I do as you can read in the paragraph above. I divert my energy to these things. Broadly defined, psychological defenses are the things we think, feel, and do that can stop another set of undesirable thoughts, feelings, or actions from taking place. Suppose I could sing opera like Enrico Caruso.
Would love to spend my life not being alone. I often times find myself questioning my life. I belong to the depression group. At that time it was just me a 4-year old boy then , my slightly elder sister who was around 6 years old , and mum. That I have no attraction to only joy for me is counting down days to my death to finally be free. Whatever the Father does, the Son also does. After coming back to office from her marriage vacation, she told me all these things.
In 1 Corinthians 13, we have first a description of a man who does not possess love. I had an abusive upbringing, was shown no real love or affection, and I partially blame this on my problems. Like traveling the world, saving the world, activism, art, etc. That is the solution to the international problems that we face at this hour. Hoping one day i just might find that special person. I often also listen to music soundtracks, classic, opera, whatever sounds good at the moment , play computer games keeps mind busy , exercise daily that feeling getting out of the house! But I am still a success at self love which to me is the greatest love anyone can have.